Queer Poem-a-Day is a program from the Adult Services Department at the Library and may include adult language. 

High School Sleepovers with Straight Girls

by Julian Guy

In the middle of rain, sunflowers on the fence,
sheets left outside hung heavy with night,
Hanna sleeps. Such soft small breaths, easy.
I love her in my stomach, dream always
of being with her laughter in locker rooms,
passenger seat of her Volvo across sun-bright
desert, collapsed in grass post-soccer practice.
She is so straight. So in love with boys
named Mason, Josh, Andrew. So blue sky,
no worries, no deep untwistable truth.
And I am good practice. When we kiss,
lie on the couch cuddled up, it’s friends.
We wake to snow. Her mother yells
the sheets froze. They look like ghosts.

Copyright © 2021 by Julian Guy. Used with the permission of the author. Originally published on Queer Poem-a-Day on the Deerfield Public Library Podcast on June 25, 2021.

Julian Guy is a queer and genderqueer writer born in the West. Julian is a graduate from the University of Nevada, Reno, where they received the DQ Creative Writing Award, Ester Early Writing Scholarship, and James Taylor Writing Scholarship for their poetry. Julian loves swimming, eating cotton candy while roller skating, and gossiping in the park with their friends. They split their time between Reno and Brooklyn. Twitter: @lizard_blitz

Queer Poem-a-Day is directed by poet and teacher Lisa Hiton and Dylan Zavagno, Adult Services Coordinator at the Deerfield Public Library. Music for our series is from Excursions Op. 20, Movement 1, by Samuel Barber, performed by pianist Daniel Baer. Queer Poem-a-Day is supported by a generous donation from the Friends of the Deerfield Public Library.